In Limbo…

Disappointing News

On Monday morning I awaited with a jittery heart the news that would determine the next week. Then the message came: Levels too low. No chemo this week.

I moved from sadness over the disappointed hopes of a quickly approaching end date to happiness surprisingly quickly. This means a week of board games, meals together, and movies, and I couldn’t be more excited about those blessings!

Next week, we anticipate that levels will be back up to where the nurses feel comfortable with administering chemotherapy.

And now, in this waiting for the final big week, it begins to sink in…

The Truth of the Matter

The thing Andrew and I haven’t talked too much about is there’s a chance that chemo will not be successful. There’s not a clear way of knowing this chemo is treating the cancer, because there’s not a way of knowing if the cancer is testicular cancer which has spread, or lung cancer which has just begun. If it is in fact lung cancer, we’ll likely have to begin over again with another treatment program. More chemo.

Waiting

We’re waiting on some big news right now. The blood work they’ll perform next Monday which will clear Andrew for chemo or delay him another week. Our move-in date to be finalized, or even estimated. And the CT scan six whole weeks after completing treatment which will tell us if the mass in his lung is bigger, smaller, or gone.

The Positives

We got a couch for the house! It’s delightful and ideal for hosting game and movie nights. We also got rid of an old couch, donating it to some Kuyper students who picked it up for us. We’re continuing to daydream about our space and checking boxes like this every week. Our next box to check is finding a Queen mattress, box spring, and frame for our bedroom. Feel free to let us know if you’re upgrading yours or getting rid of a spare!

The Part where You Come In…

This blog post is what’s on our minds. But here’s a bulleted list (with some action steps) for you to organize your thoughts:

• There’s anxiety over the end growing farther away, and the uncertainty that waits for us there
• There’s nervousness for the nausea that could increase and was very intense last time
• We’d appreciate prayers against sickness in Andrew as there’s some things going around
• We like to read letters from you all; that’s been enjoyable.
• Any leads on a mattress would be much appreciated. we don’t expect to move for another month or two yet.